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Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Why do you suck ass

I often think of all sorts of stupid shit, and this question has been lingering in my head as of late:

Is there a limit to a player's growth?

This is something I often wonder when I observe players who have played forever, yet don't quite improve. I often wonder if these players will ever change, if they would ever make the leap.  Or if they would remain in their perpetual mediocrity.  And that they've already met their limit as to how far they can go. 

I can't decide if these players cannot make the jump because they simply cannot, or if they are not trying hard enough to.  It seems dismissive to consider that they simply aren't trying hard enough.  And yet, so many of them show resistance towards the recognition of their mistakes which makes me wonder if they are indeed trying hard enough, or do they just give no shits at all.  It seems they do, judging by their reaction to losses and the amount of the time they invest.  So what's stopping them from getting better? (Pride?)

Then there are players who fully understand their mistakes, and is powerless to change it.  They know it's stupid.  They know it's bad.  And they certainly recognize the situation when it occurs.  But when the moment comes to make the difference, they make the mistake again, and again.  What's stopping them from getting better? (Experience?)

From personal experience, there were about four steps:
A) Be shitty
B) Recognize the mistake after
C) Recognize the mistake moment before it happens, and be powerless to change it
D) Recognize the mistake moment before it happens, and have enough control of oneself to stop it

Each step was very difficult to overcome, especially from C to D.  I swear I was bordering on depression when I knew what I had to do but could not.  It did come eventually, I don't know how exactly.  Maybe it was just a mix of both time and effort.  I was finally able to control myself even in the direst situation (and not just click mindless into my demise, some would call this being a Korean in dotaverse).  It did get easier from there, as I had more control over myself, I was able to fix my leaks more proactively.  

And I mean meaningful mistakes.  Usually, these are rather simple things, where the value lies in the recognition in its importance, and the ability to execute the correct answer.  For example, a good player would know that as QoP against bat, he should not give free lassos to the bat player.  And he'll make this simple precaution a reality, as best as he can.  A QoP who's not mindful of this simple precaution will get lasso'd for free as an initiation to a teamfight, which is costly to say the least.  Or the ability to respect the enemy's competence and hug the tower when he goes missing for a rune.  I will hug this tower and not die if it means I am hugging this shit for the next minute.  Dying is certainly not going to solve anything and I have enough control over myself to execute this insanely boring, stupid as hell, yet correct decision.  

I don't know, I guess it also brings up the question of nature vs. nurture.  But largely my curiosity lies with those that just fail to improve.  There are players that I know to have great game sense and execution, but their inability to fix massive leaks get in the way of them making really great.  These are players that win often enough, and have sickass moments that'd make me clap and exclaim in excitement, then baffle me the next minute by performing an incredible act of stupidity.  Well, maybe it's just more clear to me because I like to nerd things out rather than naturally be amazing at something.  But if y'all are talentless bastards like me you best nerd shit out like me or something.  

I don't fuckin' know.  It's goddamn 5:19AM, time to sleep or play more civ5 bcuz fuk u fierce u fuck.

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